Depression.
Depression is pain. The worst kind of suffering.
It becomes increasingly hard to sleep at night — every morning begins on a morose note.
The scariest part about depression is not the endless blanket of darkness that covers you.
The scariest thing about depression is the moment of realization that repeatedly shows that you have lost yourself.
Each time you close your eyes, your soul sinks into the depths of the primordial ocean of pain.
You can’t sleep. You can’t escape. The thoughts keep haunting you.
2 a.m.
Churning thoughts have robbed your sleep away.
A nightmare — except it’s all happening.
It’s real. It’s not something that will go away once you wake.
It seems like the nightmare is here to stay.
You have even lost your tears. Those tears of acid have already broken you.
Get up.
Yes, I am telling you to get up.
Step outside your house. Feel the frosty air on your skin.
Take a long breath and notice the tiny clouds you make when you exhale.
Lie on the grass and admire the glory of the night sky.
Find the moon and the elusive stars that shield the tapestry of black. Let them know every inch of your soul. Believe me, it’s safe in their arms.
Your insecurities. The thoughts that break you. Your pain.
Tell them everything.
Let the stars and the moon bear the weight of your thoughts for a while. You have been carrying them for too long.
When it gets too cold, get inside.
Prepare a cup of warm tea and absorb its warmth.
Take a pen and write down whatever you are feeling right now.
Write the feelings you wanted the world to know, the ones they didn’t want to know.
Keep the words safe. One day, you might help the world with your journey of hope.
When you feel the cold air rattling your bones, get back into the arms of your blanket.
I hope your thoughts get better. As you slowly drift away to sleep, remember to wake up with hope.
I have faced loss and immense pain. I know how it feels to be broken.
I have seen hardships up close. I have felt the feeling of loneliness.
But, I stand again — moving a little bit each day.
The lessons that I have learned help me in my journey.
They remind me that I am a warrior.
I won’t let anything destroy me without a fight.
Your life is a world of both good and bad.
Take a moment to slow down and absorb all of it.
Life is not about sitting in a corner and waiting for the storm to pass. Life is about how you learn to dance under the very storm.
It’s not easy but daily efforts add up to better results.
Always remember that the process of healing isn’t a straight path.
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